Melody's thoughts

I bought a car! It is a 1992 Ford Mustang, 5spd. sunroof, power windows, cruise control, alarm system (to keep my friends away). I had to put gas in it and it takes mad gas though, took me $40some to fill the tank. I changed the oil and filter today and am working on the muffler. I need to buy a part for $15 but don't have any money what so ever because the car was pricy and then I owe a lot for insurance, my insurance went up $200 a year because it is a Mustang, although before I was driving a Delsol. Hmm...
I am job hunting at the moment. I might just work at Kairsie's Mcdonalds for three months or something then get a better paying job. I will still work part time for the church too.

I guess I am not good at re-adjusting or something. I know God has called me to preach to the nations, I just love seeing how he is moving around the world. It is just so hard, I really love some people and it is hard to leave my friends and go serve God. I was really upset because my one friend (no names) commented how awesome it was and how much fun I should be having and loving missions. Yes, I love preaching and sharing the Gospel, and I am doing it because of the cross, but I have never been so challenged physically and emotionally. It is not all fun and games it is hard and sometimes I just wish I could stay home and work surrounded by the people I love and can talk to.
Right now I feel like I am just doing what I have to so that I can get by. Although I am mad excited about maybe going to Scotland.
Peace ya'll

Nahum 1:7

So I went to wal-mart today and bought 104 pictures! I will spend the next couple of days working on putting them into my brand new scrapbook! I love seeing pictures, so if anyone wants to see them let me know.
I would like to say a sorry to the youth group. After youth group on Sunday I was going through so much culture shock that I just had to walk out and I didn't say goodbye to anyone. I probably didn't handle it like I should have but I didn't know what to do so I wanted to go home. I still am not completely better but I'll get over it soon.
Had to work today, nice to be able to work again and feel like I am getting money in.
Last night I went back to the doctor and found out I have exorcised induced asama. Which sorta stinks because I love to do stuff and it might hinder me a little, but I know God is good and will work it out.
I am glad to be back and yet ready to go again. I love seeing what God is doing around the world and being apart of it. He is a good God and is moving in such amazing ways, he is not just for America.
Praise God my camera turned on long enough for me to get the pictures onto the computer, then it died again. I really am not too upset about the lose of a camera it did it's job for two years and went around the world with me. Jeff was saying I probably won't be able to get the pictures but I have them now and that makes me happy.

Nahum 1:7

So I go home tomorrow which I am excited about and yet very sad. I am going to miss all my friends here, luckly those I have gotten close to live all within an hour drive of my house.
Note to myself I feel pretty today.
I am very thankful to Ruth B and the Musselman family (minus Brook) for showing up at my thing last night. It meant a lot to me to see people again. Although I had no clue what I was going to talk about and really don't remeber what I said. I just prayed that God would give me words, I knew I had a picture and was suppose to talk about that picture for 3-5 min. I started talking about the picture and then it went a totally different direction then I thought. I guess that is what God wanted.
God has shown me so many things this past week and I am excited about life. I am hoping I am not too disapointed when I get home and I realize people didn't miss me like I missed them. All in all I missed quite a few people and you'll be hearing from me soon about hanging out.
I have to go look pretty and eat good food, such a hard job for me I know. It is our last supper so we have some special banquet. Yumm.....

Woot I am having good days! Yesterday I saw my family and that rocked my socks. I missed them so so very much. I went to the doctor and she said I have really bad bronchitus or something and I got all these meds and after just one day I am feeling a lot better.
It is good to be with my other STAT friends, I missed them a lot and really enjoy living here at HDC.
Well, I will be home sometime Saturday and then I will see most of you guys at church on Sunday! That is so exciting. I really can't wait to see people.
On Thursday night we are having some program at Sulunga (spelling?). I am speaking for five min and still have to decide what all I will say. I know God will show me.
I can't wait to see Gabby and Brook!
I have multiple personalitys right now. I woke up at 7:30 this morning and there were no clean cups here. There was a K-team here yesterday and they had this big party and didn't do their dishes. So, I did all the dishes and the cups had names on them and so I took the tape with the names and put them all over my shirt. Yay! Okay, I am really hyper right now. I am happy to be home and energized because of feeling better. And having my mad awesome friends around me again is making me hyper too.

Peace ya'll

I'm back at HDC and I am going home one day this week to see a Doctor. I am so fed up with being sick and I am not getting better.
It was a good trip and a little bumpy on the plane. On the one flight which was eight hours long I was not able to get a seat with the rest of my team. I sat next to these two guys which they were pretty cool. The guy had a DVD player with him and told me I had to watch this one movie and so for two hours I watched this movie and it was my first time ever using a personal dvd player! Mad cool that some random guy let me use his.
I can't wait to be home again. I enjoyed Lithuania but it was time for me to come home.
Wanna know something funny, on my passport there is a stamp coming into America for Aug 6th 2005 and then you flip the page and there is another stamp coming into America Aug 6th 2006. Every year on that day I come home! Quite fun.

Wow it is already Saturday night in 7 days I will be home! This past week has been really hard. We didn't really have a translator all the time and when we did she didn't know much English because she was just learning it in school.
During the week I was able to play with lots of kids and get to know some of them. They all came from really bad backrounds and it was hard for me. I couldn't tell them how much Jesus loved them and how I was praying for them.
The camp was for kids ages 5-16. I never heard of a five day over night camps for such young kids but they didn't mind being away from their parents because their parents were never really home anyway.
By the end of the week I was so in love with holding the kids and just loving them. Last night I was holding a kid and praying and I knew I was exactly where God wanted me. It was really calming.
Please keep praying for my health. I have been coughing and I can't run or anything. I was coughing up blood and stuff and throwing up a lot. Rochelle almost made me go to the hospital but I decided I will just wait till after STAT and go to the doctor. Shh...I know it sounds like a bad plan but I don't really feel sick until I start coughing, and I kept my ice cream down yesterday.
Well, in twenty four hours my team and I fly out to go to New Jersey and then we will be driving to Harrisburg. Then in one week I will be home. Please come and hang with me the first week I am home because it will be more laybed back, and then I leave for a weekend to go to Purple Door. When I get back from Purple Door I will go job searching!

Till next time...
p.s. I had a shower today! First time this week. I feel so nice and clean. I am running out of conditioner so I decided I can't shower at HDC.